同志亦凡人第二季

故事进展到这一步，王子和王子的童话被踩成了碎渣。

漫画成品的发布会上，Justin在拥挤而混乱的人潮中努力寻找Brian。周围一具具光裸性感的身体，旁若无人地接吻缠绵，他的目光有些彷徨，我想他是害怕的。
害怕就像第一次满心欢喜地在GAY BAR里找B，却看见他抱着另一个人温柔细腻那样的尴尬。

Mikey对Brian说，你有没有想过，也许有一天，Justin会爱上别人。
Brian照样无所谓地耸耸肩：他那么年轻，我管不了他。

所以当发现J的外遇的时候，B只是愤怒。
他没有想过挽救。
他如濒危一样地抓紧他，他咬他的嘴唇，他用尽全力地吻他，他用J期待的方式，隔离开肉体关系，用嘴唇膜拜他。
但一切不过只是一个证明。证明两个人的关系已经蒸发。
J的若无其事，J的心不在焉，都宣告爱情已经有心无力地到达了一个临界点。

B在J的身上闻到了别人的味道。
然后他看到了那个别人，在匹兹堡漫天纷飞的雪花里，孤独地拉着小提琴的男人。
B一定觉得很可笑。连外遇都禁不住在Justin面前赞美，Brian是个尤物。
毫无竞争力的对手，Justin你怎么就心甘情愿地把身体交给他。

Mikey谴责Justin，他说，不管你信不信，你是Brian最爱的那一个。
Justin当然不信，Brian说过，我不会用你期待的方式来爱你，过去不会，将来也不会。
在我身边不会有浪漫的野餐和温存的情话，我能给你的，只有暴烈的性。
所以Justin会说，他不爱我，他只是喜欢操我。

在迷离灯光和震耳音响中，Justin找到Brian。
没有意外地，他正靠着柱子跟另一个男人打得火热。
瞧，关系太轻巧，他连伤心都用不着。
转身的时候，那个小提琴手正好趁虚而入。

Justin背对着Brian跟小提琴手热情拥吻。
Brian摘掉眼罩，面无表情地扯过身边的男伴，继续纵情狂欢。

他们忘了说，爱情真的有问题。

Justin的高中毕业酒会，Brian意外光临，跟他共舞一曲，成为全场焦点。那晚多可爱，他们只属于彼此。
可是事情就在那一晚开始变化。

J遇到袭击，B心怀愧疚，这愧疚蔓延成一股淡淡的爱意，也许爱里的关怀，是因为责任。
他们开始像正常的情侣一样逛街，约会，接吻，做爱。那是这个故事最好的光阴，浪子情深，感情锁定给一个人。
如果不问后来，我们就可以心满意足地让这一切落幕了。

究竟是迷恋这种方式的爱，还是借着这种方式的爱来互相伤害，成年人的世界太多揣测和阴霾，sunshine要下雨了。

喜欢Brian是因为他不靠岸。
可是如果对他没有靠岸的期待，又为什么要一直喜欢。
倘若他承认了这份感情，愿意为爱牺牲为爱安营扎寨，那又会怎么样。

如果Justin没有这样年轻，能理解Brian每一个角度的无奈徘徊，百分之一百的包容和忍耐，那又会怎么样。

恨Brian，因为他永远不会告诉你，他在背后为你做了多少事。
他不会告诉你你住院的每一晚他都在走廊上默默等待。
他不会告诉你为了给你找一份好工作他可以牺牲掉多少睡眠。
他不会告诉你失约跟你去滑雪的约定是因为他面临失业的危险。
他不会告诉你他一页一页把漫画打印出来是因为他真的在吃醋。

他什么都不说，你什么都不知道，而你太年轻，他却早就开始承担生活了。

J从外遇的家回来，走进卧室，B只看他一眼，然后掀开被窝，让他躺进去，最后裹住他。
他什么都不说，因为他什么都知道。

两个沉默的人会有将来吗？在建立足够坚韧的默契以前。
不知道。

可是Mikey说得对，B在用自己的方式爱着J。
哪怕J并不期待。

爱情的问题古古怪怪，可是你不说我不说似乎是最厉害的一种。
不信任是因为害怕信任了以后没有结果。
不交心是因为害怕交心了以后不再动情。

放荡是因为畏惧。
流浪是因为孤独。

可是Brian为什么又要在充斥着爱欲和肉体的场合里，看着J的堕落放肆，露出那样迷恋又不忍的表情。

在看【TLW】的时候，就已经知道ShowTime有部类似的被奉为男同经典的美剧。一直没有时间，也没有想起，直到前段时间实在无聊至极，对LES电影也开始厌倦，去豆瓣翻男同电影推荐时发现了【QAF】，评价分数还出奇的高，几乎每季都有9.2的评分。既然这么高的人气，就试着看看吧。加之最近英语被法语影响得厉害，追追美剧不失为一个很好的保持英语感觉的办法。

实话说，第一季直到21集我都没有什么特别钟爱的感觉。美剧就是这样，酒吧，毒品，性，乱七八糟，总体上形式跟【TLW】也差不了多少，只不过把女人换成了男人，sex的场面增添了力量感。大体感觉上，Micheal是个好老婆，David是个control freak，Brian是个坏孩子，Justin是个年少轻狂的学生。Brian在Babylon猎艳时遇上初涉Gay圏的Justin，于是两人翻云覆雨一夜，把第一次奉献给了Brian的Justin便开始无可抑制地爱上了他。Brian的确很迷人，同时也很难相处。表面上的他自私自利、自我中心、我行我素，其实也不过为了掩盖内心自己从不承认的柔软。这让我想起了【Lip Service】中的Frankie。同样的一脸无所谓的伪装，同样的用酒精和性爱麻醉自己，同样的不愿承认自己心中存留的爱。

真正让我对这部剧感兴趣，是从S1最后一集，Brian最终出现在Justin的毕业舞会开始。我不知道这是不是全剧Brian对Justin做过的最浪漫的事。Justin说Brian从来不会浪漫。不是因为他不会，而是因为他不想。在Brian的意识中，浪漫、爱情乃至婚姻，都是那些无聊的异性恋者玩的游戏。用他自己的话来说就是：I don't believe in love, I just believe in fucking. 他似乎对爱情没有过向往，也似乎没有过孤独，以及在性爱游戏中迷失。但真相谁又知道呢？其实Micheal算是了解他的，他知道Brian内心深处的热情。从Brian暗地里捉弄轻判打伤Justin的凶手的法官，从他替Linz和Mel策划婚礼并试图把旅行券送给她们，从他扔下要紧的工作飞奔医院安慰慌乱的Micheal，从他装作冷漠却每晚在Justin病房门外守候，从他在Justin生日那晚站在花店门口踌躇，尽管最终没有还是没有买下那一点点的浪漫，从他看到Justin和Micheal睡在同一张床上时的醋意……这一切的一切，都证明他内心对朋友的关怀和Justin的爱。但是从来一副吊儿郎当的他，从来不愿意承认这一切，不愿意承认自己有一颗有血有肉的心。他宁愿相信自己是一块冰冷的石头，不愿让别人施予温暖。

所以，当Brian出现在Justin的毕业舞会，并与他倾情舞蹈，并当着众人的面深情拥吻的时候，为了这"ridiculously romantic"，我陶醉了。那首历史悠久的歌曲，《Save the Last Dance for Me》，却成了他们鲜活的爱情见证。Brian从来没说过他爱Justin，他也没有想过要拥有一段固定的感情，但无论他承认与否，他已经不自觉地爱上Justin，这就是事实。尽管他做了很多事情来否认，伤害了Justin，也伤害了自己。第二季开头几集的小温情，让我无法不感动，也无法不为他们感到幸福。而接下来，到最后一集，Justin牵着Ethan的手离开了Brian，而Brian只是摆出一部不乱方寸满不在乎的样子，我不知道自己是为他失去Justin而心痛，还是为他需要如此辛苦地伪装而心痛。Brian的口头禅是：You are pathetic. 其实这句话，说的又何尝不是他自己呢？

Justin遇上Brian并不是什么好事。自从遇上他，Justin的生活便开始变得一团糟。家里变成了回不去的地方，学校则成为恐同暴力发生的场所，而Brian更是从来没有过任何爱的表示，尽管他们一直处于同居状态。所以Justin在离开Brian前如此评价他：He doesn't love me. He just fuck me. 其实在这一点上，Justin也知道并非这样，只是Brian爱他的方式，不是他需要的方式。Justin希望他的爱人只会想着他，抚摸他，他们可以静静地享受二人世界，或许是一次野餐，一次旅行，而不是流连于灯红酒绿的酒吧。"It's not Brian!" Micheal说得很对。Brian不是这种人。或许起初时，Justin幻想着用爱去改变他，结果是最后绝望地离他而去。虽然我对他们的分手伤心和惋惜（从我忍不住去翻剧透得知他们分手开始，我便食欲不阵难以入睡...），但其实从现实考虑，Justin选择Ethan是正确的。他们都很年轻，都对艺术有着执著的追求，都理解艺术的感觉，有共同的追求。当然，Brian也是个难得的广告界的精英，但毕竟是商业范畴，少了所谓的艺术内涵。

S2以此作为结局，当真无比虐心。Brian会如何掩释自己的感觉？Justin会如何和Ethan走下去？Ben的病会不会再发作？Emmett和Ted会不会当真幸福地延续下去？Linz和Mel又会继续遇上什么挑战？……我不敢再去看剧透，宁愿一点一点地发现，去惊喜，去惋惜，去担心，去为他们鼓掌，为他们叹息。同志亦凡人，这个剧名很有亮点。不管是不是同志，在走向坟墓之前，生活就得继续下去，每个人都一样。Micheal说："Despite everything, we'll survive." 他们如是，我们如是。生活如是。

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There's got to be someone in this vast panorama of sweaty bodies. You're just dying to have reject you.--Emmett

It's just the essential elements of a healthy diet. Salt, saturated fat, alcohol.--Brian

There you have it, proof positive that making other people happy can cause nausea, severe cramps, even diarrhea.--Brian

You know how I feel about weddings. They're anticipated, meaningless rituals for heterosexuals.--Mel

Why shouldn't he get a little action? He's outside the required 400-mile limit for extra-marital quickies and anonymous assignations.--Emmett

There's never a right time to admit that you've failed.--Mikey

All protests are bullshit. I mean, a bunch of well-meaning do-gooders marching around carrying signs, chanting "hey, hey, ho, ho, homophobia's got to go". Give me a goddamn fucking break.--Brian


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I want you to hear what I have to say on an empty stomach. So maybe you'll digest it.--Deb

We faggots are a talented bunch. You gotta hand us that. And indestructible too. If AIDS and gay-bashers and crackpot Christians and fucking republicans can't destroy you, nothing can!--Deb

Yeah, it's fine to salivate over some bimbo with boobs the size of flotation devices stuffing a zucchini up her twat.but god forbid you should see some guy with pecs of death squatting on a road teepee. Oh, then you're instantly out on your ass. -- Ted

Look him straight in the eye, and tell him that even though the law permits it,you think what he did is unjustified and unconscionable.--Lindsay

You know, for someone who has enough disorders to merit your own classification in diagnostic and statistical manual, you are one of the most well adjusted and high functioning bastards I know. What's your secret?
A series of hopeless addictions, for one. And never seeing a shrink, for another.--Brian

Some things never change, huh?
-You're wrong, ma. Things change a lot. If you don't change with them, then you get left behind. Look at me, I'm right back in the same place I was before. And everybody else has moved on. I feel lost, ma.--M&Deb

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These characters have principles. When you have principles, you don't need orgasms.
-You have principles when you don't have orgasms. -- Ted &Brian

Why must your happiness always depend on someone else? First Brian, then David, Now back to Brian. If you came back here 'cause you thought Brian was missing you as bad as you were missing him. You fucked up big time. --Deb

What kind of mindless palliative is that for existential angst.--Ted 没什么药可以治疗自暴自弃

Before you turn around, you guys'll be our age. And you'll regret every night you didn't go out and grab a little life. -- Vic

Things go forward instead of backwards, right? And nothing stays the same. So don't trouble yourself. There's no reasons for you to be there with me, and there's no reason for me to expect you to be.

Things have changed, we've moved on and it's okay. No demands, no expectation, no regrets.--Mikey

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I'll be glad when pride's over. So we can all go back to being ashamed. -- Brian

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My dream is to one day know what my dream is.
-Dreaming's for people who like to sleep. I'd rather be awake and fucking. -- Brian

Life sucks, kid. Better you know it now than be disappointed later. -- Miley

I know what happened to you sucks, and I'm not gonna give you some pollyanna shit, about everything happens for a reason, or this was god's gift to make you strong. All you can do at a time like this is just hang on until the scenery changes. --Deb

What's easy besides complaining?

It ain't the end of the world, kid. Unless you want it to be.

Pornography happens to serve an important and profoundly humane service. --Ted

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Internet access: $38.00. Adult porn site membership: $29.95. Watching man jerk off from comfort of your own home: priceless. Masturbate the possibilities.

Morning Deb. Flop two, sinker and some suds.
-Two eggs, a doughnut and coffee for Mr. Wonderful. --Brian

Don't be pathetic. You made a commitment. Now you're going to go through with it.
-Yeah, a lot you know about making commitments.
Which is why I never do. -- B&M

You grab your pud and you pull!

You think you got everybody fooled, don't you? Well not me, honey. I've known you too long and regrettably too well. And no matter how hard you try to deny it. I can tell you care as much about him as he cares about you. Only you haven't got the big hairy cojones to say it. --Deb

We're queers. And if we're together. It's because we want to be, not because there's locks on our doors. So if I'm out late, just assume I'm doing exactly what I want to be doing: I'm fucking. And when I come home, I'll also be doing exactly what I want to do: coming home to you. --Brian

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Emmett's a star
-His dick's a star. He's just the life-support system. --B&M

As they say, out of adversity, comes knowledge. And I've learned to put my fears aside, and just find serenity in the chaos.
I think the secret is to stop regretting the past and fearing the future, and just live in the now.--Ben

If you've got one foot in tomorrow and one foot in yesterday, you'll piss on today.

He teaches you to focus on the smallest details. The breeze against your cheek, the way your shirt falls against your body, the feel of someone's hand on your back. Help you realize that right now, this moment is, it's all there is.--Ben

Well, that's what writers do, you know, we just cut ourselves open and bleed all over the page. --Ben

One of you could be positive. The reason you're not certainly isn't because you're always careful. I know goddamn well that isn't true. You're lucky. You're fucking lucky. So don't tell me you couldn't love somebody just because they're not as fortunate as you are. -- Deb打脸

Those who don't learn their lessons are condemned to repeat their courses.

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Youth should be savoured. -- Brian

Most of them are too busy chasing their hard-ons to listen to their heart. -- Deb

When we said good night, we also said goodbye. -- Emmett

Do you know how pathetic you are? One lousy fuck. Now you're carrying on like some lovesick fairy. You've got a lot to learn. Fags will say anything to get their dicks sucked or fuck a nice ass. Then it's on to the next. -- Justin

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What you need is something to keep your eyelids open.
You never know unless you try
Attaboy. Yeah.

Seems success is the ultimate aphrodisiac.

It's classic end-of-affair remorse. Made worse by the fact that you don't have anyone to replace him.

Whenever I come here, I feel a sense of calm, of inner peace. Knowing that I'm watched over, protected, safe.

I took viagra last night. It's been 18 hours and it won't go down. What am I gonna do?
-Have you tried soaking it?
-How about a cold shower?
-How about scaring it?
-What about something that would absolutely turn you off?
-That's a great idea. Why don't you two show him your tits?

God still loves you, no matter what.
-Yeah, like I give a shit what god thinks about me. He'd better be worried what I think about him. In all this cold, dead universe. We're the only ones that know he exists. Without us, he's nothing. -- Brian

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I still don't understand why you want to go to bed with an old guy like me, when there's all those beautiful young men out there.
-Well, for one thing, most of those beautiful young men are only interested in themselves. And for another, the sex is usually so fast and impersonal, you forget that you had it by the time you get home. -- Emmett

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Blaming the planets for your fuck-ups is just an excuse not to accept responsibility. -- Brian.

It wouldn't be right for you to stay. Brian Kinney sacrificing for others. Trapped in a hideous display of sentimentality. I'd lose all faith, all hope. What kind of gift is that?
I want you to fuck lots of beautiful guys. No apologies. No regrets. It's the best gift you could give me. Knowing you're happy. -- Lindsay

I think you're a selfish, heartless asshole. Keep up the good work. -- Brian

Btw: 这一集结尾的剪辑太棒了

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You know what's gonna happen? First we're gonna go back to your place. Then I'm gonna rip off your clothes. Then I'm gonna pin you to the mat like Wrestle Mania. That's just the exhibition match. For the main event, I'm gonna grab your legs and whip them over your head. And work my tongue down between your…
-My…what?
Well, I got us this far, now it's your turn.
-Okay my turn, I say let's get out of here and fuck. --Mikey&Ben

It's the first rule of gay etiquette: Never talk about your past fucks. Especially if one of your past fucks is your best friend's current fuck. -- Brian

When I find out that you and he… I just couldn't stop thinking…
-That…I knew him in a way you don't.
And he knows you in a way that I do.--Mikey&Ben

You had a life before I came along. So did I. Including people we've loved that we're still in love with. But that doesn't mean we can't love each other. -- Ben

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What kind of homosexual are you?
-The kind that fucks men. -- Brian

Fine, then, go ahead. But don't come crying to me when you succeed--Brian

This is it. Don't be nervous.
-If my heart rate was any lower, I'd be dead. --Brian

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Did I mention that I have an irrational but nevertheless quite intense fear of any physical activity that doesn't take place in bed? --Emmett

Is that "Not thanks, not tomorrow" or "No thanks, not ever"?

You're a hard act to follow.

Make mad passionate love at the top of your lungs.

You deserve a fabulous life, Em.
As fabulous as you.

Dug her high heels in and she's not budging.

The reason you don't have a boyfriend is because you don't want one. If you had one, it would challenge the well-established opinion you have of yourself, as a worthless sack of shit that nobody wants. Therefore, you go after guys you know will reject you, then you stand around here and bitch like a high school girl when in fact you've gotten exactly what you want, mainly…nothing.-- Brian

Value, principles, they're the first things to go when you want a cock

最后：whaaaaaaaaaaaaat……

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Knowing you guy's dysfunctional history, you'd put up with anything.
-Well, you'll be happy to know that even a glutton for punishment eventually gets his fill.

What we had for a few short months was more than most people have in a lifetime. -- Emmett

Rage…Hahahahahaha hilarious…

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He's managed to free himself from all the emotional baggage that the rest of us carry around.

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It's much better to give than to receive, except in bed. -- Emmett

The only thing that kept him going was his music.
No matter how shitty things get, I always have art. It's the one place I can go where I'll always be safe. --Justin

Can we please stay home, for one night? Just the two of us.
-You're too young to settle down.
-You're too old to fuck around.--Justin&Brian

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I'd ask you boys to stay but I know you need to toddle on back to your lackluster little lives. --Ted

It was just a spontaneous "I don't know how the hell it happened but there you are, doing it" sort of thing.--Lindsay

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The brain is the second sexiest organ. Which is not to say that the rest of you is not hot. --Emmett

第二遍了，还是很好看。这部是我看过的最好看的美剧了。看第二遍还是觉得有很多思考的地方，比如勇敢，比如什么爱才是真的爱情，比如如何对待朋友，对待家人，对待工作，人生态度，都对我有很大的触动。而Brian我觉得个方面都是一个榜样，除却表像，他真的很棒，不论是对爱人、朋友、亲人、同事。而且是那种真实的，而不是虚伪的道德典范！